Tuesday, July 17, 2012

It might seem foolish and I might look silly.....

Carrying around a cap full of olive oil around blessing and protecting my house, but it something I was told to do and I felt it needed to be done. Yes… I probably looked like a total crazy person to my neighbors looking outside their windows at dusk watching a girl touching every door and window with her eyes closed talking in the air, but who cares???
Now... I can say all my door ways and windows inside and outside my house are fully anointed with God’s PEACE LOVE AND JOY! I have walked around my entire house praying God's protection over us and my baby boy from anything of satan. There is a sword of STRONG FAITH protecting all the people in this household.
PRAISE JESUS!!! Tonight GOD has taken over and I wanted to share some of the things I have been experiencing and why I think it was time to hand it over to GOD! After all.. I am a very strong Godly woman... so why didnt I already believe and do this?? I can't answer that.. All I can say is tonight I have given my FEAR to the lord and know without a shadow of doubt he will COME THROUGH FOR ME! :)
Fear: A distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.
Yes… being a first time mom has been TRULY AMAZING FOR ME and I didnt know I could love someone SOOO MUCH! He is my EVERYIHING!! but it hasn't been easy at times. I find myself WORRIED constantly and scared of everything when it come to my baby boy. It has broken me down in tears many times and fear has over taken my every thought...
Will he be ok in his crib,
is he ok during the night,
is he breathing,
did he poop today,
Is he constipated,
does he have diarrhea,
is that a rash,
does he feel warm,
did I take the balnkie away from his face,
will he be ok if I leave him with them,
Is he eating enough,
I hope he does not choke,
Should I call the Dr.,
will he be safe in the car,
will someone wreck into us,
He's to far away in his own room,
Does he need more food,
should I give him that??
and more.. that frighten me so bad to even type or say
Yes, these may be concerns of all NEW MOMS, but I am completley overwhelmed. You might be reading this and thinking you feel the exact same way, or you might be reading this with a smirk on your face thinking… oh, yes… that just come with being a new mom, we all went through it. Or you might be reading it.. thinking.. OMG this girl is CRAZY!!!
But… tonight I could not take it anymore… I used my voice tonight and asked for help. I decided to face it head on and knew God tugging at my heart telling me to just ask for prayer and guidance. I received lots of answers tonight and took action. I felt I should share the GREAT NEWS with the world what GOD is doing in my life! :)
I would like to leave you with this last prayer… “I commit and cast the care of my children once and for all over on You, Father. They are in your hands, and I am positively persuaded that you are able to guard and keep that which I have committed to you. You are MORE THAN ENOUGH!” – (Prayers That Avail Much – For Mothers)


  1. I've been through the exact same thing. Thought the exact same thoughts. And though it's gotten better with him getting older, I still struggle more than I should. I'm glad to know you're overcoming fear, and it is possible. Most people just think I'm a cray worry wart! Stay strong!

  2. Wow!!! Sounds like years ago. I use to do the same thing with the kids. Fear had a giant hold on me along with anxiety and panic attacks. But praise God I am not that way any more. When you give it to God he come in like a flood and takes it from us. He's already paid the price for us. Living in peace is so much better. You are Bkessed with a beautiful family. Love you girl.