Sunday, July 22, 2012

The Many Faces

The many faces of my son that play just a little part in my falling in love with him! :)
His serious face..
His goofy face...
His I'm hungry face...
His passed out face...
His "that hurt" face... if you notice, mommy's hurt face too! When he hurts.. I hurt! :(

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Becoming a NEW Mommy & Daddy

My First Mothers Day - May 13, 2012 (Tucker 3 weeks old)
At church I won newest mom! :)
This is the poem I read in church... bawling my eyes out as I finally knew what it felt like to be a new mom! :) PRECIOUS!!
Before I was a Mom -
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.
Before I was a Mom -
I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom -
I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts. I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom -
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom -
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom -
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.
Before I was a Mom -
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.
This was little Tucker wishing me a Happy Mothers Day!! He made the card all by himself & stuck a 100 dollar bill in there too! HAHA
Stephen's First Father's Day! :) June 17th, 2012 (Tucker was 2 months old)
Tucker made him a photo album and gave him some TEXAS RANGER TICKETS! :)

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

It might seem foolish and I might look silly.....

Carrying around a cap full of olive oil around blessing and protecting my house, but it something I was told to do and I felt it needed to be done. Yes… I probably looked like a total crazy person to my neighbors looking outside their windows at dusk watching a girl touching every door and window with her eyes closed talking in the air, but who cares???
Now... I can say all my door ways and windows inside and outside my house are fully anointed with God’s PEACE LOVE AND JOY! I have walked around my entire house praying God's protection over us and my baby boy from anything of satan. There is a sword of STRONG FAITH protecting all the people in this household.
PRAISE JESUS!!! Tonight GOD has taken over and I wanted to share some of the things I have been experiencing and why I think it was time to hand it over to GOD! After all.. I am a very strong Godly woman... so why didnt I already believe and do this?? I can't answer that.. All I can say is tonight I have given my FEAR to the lord and know without a shadow of doubt he will COME THROUGH FOR ME! :)
Fear: A distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.
Yes… being a first time mom has been TRULY AMAZING FOR ME and I didnt know I could love someone SOOO MUCH! He is my EVERYIHING!! but it hasn't been easy at times. I find myself WORRIED constantly and scared of everything when it come to my baby boy. It has broken me down in tears many times and fear has over taken my every thought...
Will he be ok in his crib,
is he ok during the night,
is he breathing,
did he poop today,
Is he constipated,
does he have diarrhea,
is that a rash,
does he feel warm,
did I take the balnkie away from his face,
will he be ok if I leave him with them,
Is he eating enough,
I hope he does not choke,
Should I call the Dr.,
will he be safe in the car,
will someone wreck into us,
He's to far away in his own room,
Does he need more food,
should I give him that??
and more.. that frighten me so bad to even type or say
Yes, these may be concerns of all NEW MOMS, but I am completley overwhelmed. You might be reading this and thinking you feel the exact same way, or you might be reading this with a smirk on your face thinking… oh, yes… that just come with being a new mom, we all went through it. Or you might be reading it.. thinking.. OMG this girl is CRAZY!!!
But… tonight I could not take it anymore… I used my voice tonight and asked for help. I decided to face it head on and knew God tugging at my heart telling me to just ask for prayer and guidance. I received lots of answers tonight and took action. I felt I should share the GREAT NEWS with the world what GOD is doing in my life! :)
I would like to leave you with this last prayer… “I commit and cast the care of my children once and for all over on You, Father. They are in your hands, and I am positively persuaded that you are able to guard and keep that which I have committed to you. You are MORE THAN ENOUGH!” – (Prayers That Avail Much – For Mothers)

Tucker's 1st Photo Shoot

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Tucker Lane Ross - my baby boy

From This...
To this...
to this..
to this ALREADY...
MY little man will be 3 months in two days! ahhhh This is so crazy! He is growing so fast. I thought I better start trying to BLOG again so I can remember all these memories with my special TUCKER!